Mr. F, originally from the Littoral Cameroon region. Banen ethnicity. 40 years old. Lives in Douala, works in road construction. Comes for a second attempt at AMP, suffers from insufficient number and mobility of sperm. First of a sibling of 7. Fate of a very pious monogamous family of Protestant religion. Fifth year of married life without children. After taking decoctions a few times and praying without success, he dedicates himself to AMP; unfortunately, the first one tries not being successful. Mr. F cares more about his wife so his age is approaching the critical threshold for the AMP procedure. He procrastinates about submitting to an AID, a decision that is not easy to make despite desperately wanting a child for his wife.

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Data related to cultural constraints

Pressure from family and loved ones to continue the lineage

People are talking behind and at home we are silent, it is much more Madam listening to what we are saying.” Who loves a tree that has no fruit, no one. You are like a flower that adorns the court and dies afterwards, leaving no fruit. Were still bothering you.”

Respect for ancestral values, safeguarding the spiritual and social heritage

But, you also have to leave offspring before you also die one day. You are going to spend on someones child no matter how he goes to see his parents and you are going to stay like that.” “It is better to have the child of your blood someones child one always ends up going away.”

The practice of spiritual rites and traditional rituals

“... Mom would ask us from time to time to take some potions that she gave us to drink to cleanse the body”; If my mother knows that I have a problem, she will start to say that we go to the marabouts to do rituals, but if it continues like this, well take a tour of the village to see whats wrong.”

Data related to the secret of the AID

The secrecy’s weight

No one is aware that we have initiated this procedure.” No one in the family knows about this; well, thats the price to pay when you want the child”; Its a grief that we do alone. If not with his wife, without shouting out loud. Its very difficult to live”; Its something Ive always kept a secret, and my wife doesnt talk about it too.”

Failure of loyalty to spouse, family and community

“...age is advancing, we have to do PMA...My wife is 37 years old...he advised us not to waste time, that when age advances, the chances of success are reduced, and you see soon, she will be 40 years old”; It is her that we ask what is wrong, the neighbors, the people of the family, many do not know that I have a problem, we know that she is the culprit, that is why I preferred that we redo the PMA, if it can really work so that we dont bother her anymore.” We will all be quiet, as well as my people.”

The personal representation of ART/AID

If there were the means, we shouldnt have started the other the same year without waiting too long; from 2017 to 2019, its not easy, we also have to help the family”; its really too expensive, there are a lot of people who are in the same situation as me but who cannot do this for lack of means”; The ADI here at home in Africa, what are you going to tell people. This is for the whites.”; When you take someones semen, whose child is that? Everyone thinks its your child, you know the truth, it hurts you even more.”

Data related to the shame of the social gaze

The feeling of guilt

I dont know why all this is happening to me when everyone around me, my brothers and sisters have children, what have I done to God?” “So that madame is so happy, all that I give her now cannot replace a child.” “It is difficult to hear that a man does not manage to have children, it is a lot more common in women”; All I want is to give my wife a child.”

The feeling of loss of self-esteem and the fear of a possible divorce

“... I was made to understand that euhhhhhh, my sperm count is small and that it doesnt move a lot.”; Sometimes I wonder if Madame will not leave me one day; the last time she cried so much”; My in-laws, dont see me that much”; I waited for the results but unfortunately it was not positive. No one had the strength to talk to the other home”; It was very hard, I was disappointed, I was uncomfortable.”

The feeling of incompleteness

No lie to you, I was euhhhhh, I was really disappointed… discouraged, very sick, sad, [piafff],” Its really, really hard. Thats why I do everything I can to ensure that we have our child together so that we can finally be as peaceful as other people”; Its complicated to live without children.”

Data related to mystical-religious practices

The relationship to witchcraft

She will try to find out if it is not a spell that the wizards have cast on me or if it is not me who sought”, they will begin to accuse me of being a wizard, or that I have sold my wifes belly or I sold for myself, to get money; Yes, it is like that.”

Beliefs in evil spirits and supernatural powers

It is often said that evil spirits can prevent someone from conceiving, I must end up thinking its mystical, because I dont understand a thing at all. How is it that I am the only child of my mother among so many others to have this problem? What made my semen not work well? I wonder if thats not mystical.”

The ART Process

Failure in the process

“... this is the fifth year now that I can say that I have started looking for the child without success”; My wife is already 37 years old, he told us that as the age advances the chances of success are reduced, she will soon be 40 years old, it becomes more and more worrying”; “For two years I have been looking for the money to come back and resume, it is not easy.”

Doubt about the quality of the unborn child via AID

“[tsuip] The other one there hmmm; you can take the blood of a bandit to your family and regret all your life.”

Doubt about therapeutic efficacy

“... when we take a lot of oocytes like what we removed from the lady there, there is no risk that it will end and that the next few times we will not find any more? Because of this Im really afraid. When it is said that they took 10 or 12 oocytes.”

Well maybe, since you never know, youll end up going to the traditional healer to really find out whats wrong”; We did the exams again. Sometimes Im afraid of this situation.”